I am reading The Law of One: The Ra Material again (this is my second time), and I am getting so many new insights into myself. I was pretty certain I was a Wanderer after I read Dolores Cannon's book The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth. But I knew I was one after reading The Law of One for the first time. In a way, I am sorry I only recently discovered this book. But I know that the Universe only gives us information as we are ready to receive it, so I was not ready until now. This book has been the only book that has resonated with me 100%. I feel it is as undistorted a spiritual text as we are ever going to get here on this current third density Earth. I really feel like Ra was coming from a place of love and acceptance of all other-selves and genuinely wanted to help people. I have been an outsider of the 3D experience my whole life, always looking on from the sidelines, wondering why everything seemed so "wrong" here. Always wondering why I was different. Knowing what I am has made a world of difference and explains why my life played out the way it did. I was not supposed to get caught up in the 3D experience. I already had my 3D experiences, 4D, and maybe even 5D. Ra said most Wanderers are from 6D.
Questioner: You spoke of Wanderers. Who are Wanderers? Where do they come from?
Ra: I am Ra. Imagine, if you will, the sands of your shores. As countless as the grains of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity. When a social memory complex has achieved its complete understanding of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid. These entities whom you may call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow move toward this calling of sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this distortion.
Questioner: How many of them are incarnate on Earth now?
Ra: I am Ra. The number is approximate due to an heavy influx of those birthed at this time due to an intensive need to lighten the planetary vibration and thus aid in harvest. The number approaches sixty-five million.
Questioner: Are most of these from the fourth density? Or what density do they come from?
Ra: I am Ra. Few there are of fourth density. The largest number of Wanderers, as you call them, are of the sixth density. The desire to serve must be distorted towards a great deal of purity of mind and what you may call foolhardiness or bravery, depending upon your distortion complex judgment. The challenge/danger of the Wanderer is that it will forget its mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom of which it had incarnated to avert destruction.
Questioner: What could one of these entities do to become karmically involved? Could you give an example of that?
Ra: I am Ra. An entity which acts in a consciously unloving manner in action with other beings can become karmically involved.
Questioner: Do many of these Wanderers have physical ailments in this third-density situation?
Ra: I am Ra. Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality
disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them.
How do you deal with the feelings of not belonging and alienation? On top of feeling the intense pain and suffering, in addition to the fear and lostness of the people on this planet at this time. And Mother Earth's agony too. And then I feel this intense responsibility to do something to help, though what that something is, I really don't know for sure. I am struggling with depression on a near daily basis these days, while trying desperately to "be the change I want to see in the world." It is an epic battle playing out almost exclusively in my head. But I will valiantly march on because I know I will win in the end. Or hope that I do. Is there anyone out there feeling this way too? Wanderer is an apt term considering that is an exact description of how I feel.
Images haunt my brain
I want off
This runaway train
I am going insane
Each day bringing me
Closer to the abyss of despair
Too sad to shed any tears
Too busy trying to beat back
The rising tide of my fears
Demons rising out of the mist
I urgently clench my fists
Tired of running
I turn and face the army
I will no longer
Give them the power to harm me
My body stands erect
My mind goes quiet
Nothing moves, breathes
The only movement
Is the movement of my will
It is churning with strength
With justice, passion, and determination
To win this war
To be my highest self
To be the person
I know I can be
Facing the demons
Is the only option for me
I won't give in
To the insanity
I won't let them win
I am the master
Of my destiny
My brother and I just watched a movie called Thrive. It is a documentary about what is really going on in the world, and what we can do to change it so that we as a human species can thrive instead of just survive. 3/4 of the movie is devoted to how the world is now. It is not a pretty picture. There is some crazy shit going on in the world. I have been getting bits and pieces of what is really going on in the world for a few years now. I have been reading about this stuff in books, online, watching documentaries. It is really hard to take in at first. I went through a period of denial. Then I felt stupid for having unknowingly colluded in my ignorance. Then I was intensely fearful for the future. Then I felt intense grief, both for myself and others, for all of the injustices that have been forced upon humanity by a select few elites. Then I was angry and wanted justice (not necessarily even justice; sometimes I wished terrible things on these people). Now I just feel compassion for these people who are so steeped in fear that they would willingly orchestrate schemes to enslave people, rape the Earth of its resources, and through their plans for world domination indirectly kill hundreds of millions of people, even billions if they have their way. How far from love these people are. But I would not want to pay any of these people's karma debts. NO WAY! The Universe takes care of those who live in love. The people who live in fear will be dealt with too. What you reap, you always sow, sooner or later.
The last 1/4 of this movie was about the positive forces that are marshaling around the world to take on the challenge to free humanity from this unknown slavery and prison we are in now (though it is no longer unknown, and the more people wake up to the truth, the faster we can set ourselves free). And what each and every person can do in his/her life right now to help bring about a positive change. If someone told you that we could have a better world today, what would you say? If someone told you we could have a world where there is free, clean energy for everyone. A world where there is plenty of land, food, and water for everyone. A world where technology and the environment co-existed peacefully. A world where people don't have to slave their lives away, knowingly or not. A world where people governed themselves simply by living the Golden Rule. I am positive that 99% of humanity would say: what can I do to bring about this change to ensure that everyone has a better way of life.
One: Know the truth. "The truth shall set you free."
Two: Love. Love yourself and the world.
Three: Ask how you can be of service to humanity and the Earth. What can I do to make a difference?
We are the ones we have been waiting for. If not now, when?
I started going through my stuff today. I am getting rid of so much more of my crap. I gave my dad my Nikon D200 digital camera today. I simply don't use it anymore. I paid over $2000 for it, and I did take pictures with it for years, but since I moved to Tennessee in June 2010, I have used it only a few times. And I have probably not taken a picture with it in a year. Why do I need it? My dad's birthday was coming up anyway, and he loves to take pictures, and he loved my camera. So it will give him joy. I also started a pile of stuff I am going to take to my mom's for her upcoming yard sale. It is small now, but I only started today. My brother, me, and my cat are moving to San Francisco, so our goal is to only take what will fit in the back of my mom's Subaru. Getting rid of material possessions feels good. You feel lighter, freer afterwards. It is the physical equivalent of getting rid of karma. The spiritual way to get rid of karma is to forgive and live Love. Do you know why they are called possessions? Because they will possess you. People work meaningless, awful jobs their whole lives to buy crap they don't need. They call it a "rat race" for a reason. Think about it!