I tried talking to my dad about something happening...again...this morning. I just want him to be given the choice that we all should have--more of what we are experiencing now and quite possibly worse (see the Chapter in my book Finding My Soul called "Choose Your Own Adventure: Old Earth or New Earth?") or Hell on Earth vs. Heaven on Earth. I don't think the choice is hard to make. But here is the rub. I was talking to my dad, and I brought up the "Book of Revelation" in the Bible which talks about the Apocalypse. I was trying to reach him on his level, with what he understands. So I said the changes that I am talking about, that are coming, are also spoken of in "Revelation." And you know what he said to me? That the changes are going to come like a thief in the night, so you won't know they're coming. Maybe "Revelation" says that and maybe it doesn't, I have no idea. It probably does because it is a warning. Don't let the changes coming be like a thief in the night. Be ready. Because if you are waiting for change to come to you, it is never going to happen. Talk about twisting the words in the Bible to suit church indoctrinated bullshit. Change does not come to you. You have to want and intend change. If you don't want or intend a better world/reality for yourself, guess what? You are never going to get a better world/reality for yourself. So you are going to miss the shift to a higher consciousness/higher dimension/rapture/ascension boat. You are going to keep creating the same crap for yourself over and over and over. And I don't wish that reality on anyone, not the Illuminati, not the NWO, but definitely not my dad. So the change will come like a thief in the night for those who are unprepared to make the shift to a higher consciousness. Don't let it be you.   

I kept reading about Motherships appearing as star formations in the sky on The 2012 Scenario, and my brother and I kept looking at the stars almost every night, to the detriment of our necks I might add, and we were not seeing anything. Well, last night our diligence was rewarded. My brother asked me to come outside. Then he asked me to look up. Sure enough, right over our house is a triangular formation. Three stars in the shape of a triangle. The stars are the exact same size and brightness, there are no stars in between and the sky is darker in this area as well. If that was not confirmation enough, a "star" came out of the "star" formation and shot across the sky. WOW! My brother and I were so excited. We waved and said hello to our star brothers and sisters.

As I was laying down in my bed thinking about the ship, I felt excitement but also something else. What was it? Then I realized it was fear. But what of? I am not afraid of my star brothers and sisters. I thought of the paradox of feeling excitement and fear at the same time, but I was not judging my feelings. I am human, and I have feelings. So I just felt them and accepted them as I fell asleep. No wonder I woke up in the morning remembering disturbing dreams. But as I digested my fear, I realized what it was: stage fright. 

I have tried so hard since I was in junior high to blend in with everyone else. I did not want to be noticed. I got mercilessly made fun of and picked on in junior high school. And at a time when my hormones kicked in and with it the emotional upheaval, my parents' marriage was also crumbling around my ears, so I had nowhere to go to feel safe and comforted. Little wonder then that I began a lifetime of trying to go unnoticed. Which is hard to do when you have pale skin, super blonde hair, and light blue eyes. Then there is the thought that we really are going to find out who we are soon. And it is ironic that I have finally come to terms with just being me, and now we are upon the time of the Great Revealing. Do you know what one definition of revelation is? It means "the divine or supernatural disclosure to humans of something relating to human existence or the world." And the origin of the word apocalypse is a Greek word apokaluptein, which means to uncover, reveal. 

And I guess I am scared all of a sudden of finding out I am someone important or something. It is actually funny considering how I always used to say I could not wait to find out who I really am. So I am being faced head on with my fear of being in the spotlight, of being noticed. Why I am feeling this right now I have no idea. But since I don't believe in coincidences, I must be feeling this fear so that I can process it and move past it. I will find out very soon, as will we all, who we really are. Whoever I was before I incarnated here, I am only me. A divine note in the symphony of Creation, no more or less important than any other note in the symphony.