I wanted to share a concept that my brother and I came up with yesterday. It is called MyD. Instead of 3D, 4D, 5D, whatever dimension/density that you are talking about, you can just say MyD for where you are right now. Because frankly, we are not even sure at this point. I have a lot of wonderful experiences and see a lot of beauty in the world. I experience a lot of peace and joy. But then I also see pain and suffering all around me, people really struggling with life and who they are. So are we bridging two worlds? Maybe, but putting labels on everything is so damn exhausting. So to describe where we are at right now, we say I am in MyD. That is all that is important. I am exactly where I am supposed to be right now. I am doing what my soul incarnated here to do and am on my highest soul path. 

My brother and I are here. Have been here in Sedona since Monday evening. It is so beautiful here. There are majestic red rocks everywhere, but there is also a lot of green. We have gone hiking two days in a row now. The trails just beckon. There are tons around here. We even have an amazing view of some beautiful hills outside of our hotel room window. And the sunset yesterday evening was amazing. Looking forward to another one. We are staying at a very nice hotel. We got a great deal on Priceline.

Saw a galactic craft over the hills outside of our window this morning. I woke up around 5:40 am to use the bathroom, and they told me to look outside. So I went and looked out through the curtains. I saw a flash of light. At first I thought it was a tower, but then it was gone. So they were saying "hi."

The energy here is amazing. But there is also an interesting juxtaposition of 3D commercialization with 5D nature and spirituality. Sedona is truly a bridge between the worlds. This is a very appropriate place for the 2012 Scenario Conference. So excited for that to start on Friday morning. Don't know what is going to happen there, but we know that it is going to be fantastic and magical.  

Spreading love. Anything I can do to uplift someone, empower someone, lend a helping hand, I will. There is no faster way to feel joy than to do something out of genuine love for someone else. 

I am NOT reading the news. I have not done this is months. I am not concentrating on the world that I don't want (3D). I am focusing all of my will on what I do want (5D-New Earth-The Golden Age-Utopia). 

Going for walks. Being outside, breathing in the air, feeling the wind, basking in the sun, even reveling in the raindrops, listening to birdsong, appreciating the trees, grass, and flowers, all of these things help you connect with Mother Earth and feel the interconnectedness of all things. 

Listening to music. Music has and will always be an inspiring way to uplift your mood. 

Writing, especially poetry. I love writing in general because I love painting pictures with words. But there is really something about poetry. It is like painting a picture that is alive with feeling/emotion. 

Gratitude. I am really appreciating my life. I look around every day and see all of the blessings. I feel divinely loved, guided, and protected. 

Reading The 2012 Scenario. I always feel uplifted after reading this website. The channeled messages, the energy forecasts, even the updates on what is going on in the world all focus on empowerment and love. 

Affirmations. They are like focusing my will on my heart goals. Here is one I wrote a few days ago: 
I call forth all of the fragments 
Of my soul
Come to me now
And make me whole
I project all of my energy
Into the NOW
And strive to live with love, joy, and peace
My heart shows me how
Through my light, all of humanity and Mother Earth
Together, to the Golden Age give birth

Use this or better yet, write your own affirmations. They will help you focus your will on achieving both the highest good for yourself, but for everyone else as well.

Seeing my star brothers and sisters. I have documented my extensive sightings of UFOs (or galactic craft) in this blog. They are in our skies, helping us, loving us, and awaiting for the glorious day when they can come down and walk among us once again (a day which I pray and intend to be very, very soon). 

Faith. Knowing in my heart that all is eternally well. That I am always divinely loved and cherished. And that the Divine Plan is unfolding exactly as it is meant to in divine time. 

My brother and I saw two UFOs yesterday. We saw one in the afternoon as we walked to the store. It looked like a puff of cloud falling from the sky. And last night "they" told me to go outside (my brother was already outside), and we saw a "star" fly across the sky. We have seen "stars" flying across the sky before. We wave and say "hi." Oftentimes I ask them to beam me up half-jokingly and take me with them wherever they are going. We also almost always see a Mothership (a triangular formation of three "stars") every night in the sky over our house. There is also one that appears to have a slightly different shape with four "stars." I am so excited that our galactic brothers and sisters are really showing themselves a lot more, and they seem to be reassuring us that they are still there, that they are seeing us through our Ascension. Even though there has been no official disclosure from the governments of the world, most people believe in other life in the Universe, and deep down, everyone "knows" that we are not alone. 

On another note, I am leaving for Sedona, AZ towards the end of the month to attend the first 2012 Scenario Conference on Ascension. I am so excited. I don't anticipate coming back to Tennessee. I really feel like something BIG is going to happen there for me (for everyone, really), and I am going to have things to do, to accomplish in the time before December 21st. That is, if we don't ascend before. I am holding on to the hope that it could happen sooner. You never know. I do know that I am going to do my best to see to it that as many people choose 5D (and higher) as possible. Anyway, I am taking two bags to AZ with me, leaving a few things with my mom and my dad, and I am giving the rest of what I have away (I do not have that much left anyway, as I have been paring down all year). So the last two months should be very adventurous indeed!     

I am beginning to think that all Starseed Lightworkers have a savior-complex. I don't mean this in a derogatory way at all as I am one of them. I cannot seem to stop myself from being a mother/helper/comforter to people in my life. I even want to mother people I don't know. I would wrap the entire world in my arms and blast off to 5D myself if I could. I would single-handedly assure the ascension of Mother Gaia and humanity. I cannot hear a cry for help and not answer it. It is impossible. Must be how I ended up incarnating down here at this time on Earth in the first place. I heard the cry for help and said, "send me, send me, I can help." And I am loving and hoping and meditating and praying and transmuting energies and still I feel helpless at times. Like I am not doing enough. 

Since I was a little girl, I have had a savior-complex. It began with wanting to save my little brother and sister. Then I wanted to save stray animals. And the Earth. Then boyfriends and friends. Lately it has been my parents. It took decades of misery before I realized that I could not save anyone but myself. And if I really loved and accepted people for who they are, I would not feel the need to save them anyway. 

But I still struggle with the savior-complex from time to time, and I just laugh at myself for it. It is not terrible to want love, joy, peace, and happiness for humanity, and for Mother Earth to be treated the way she deserves to be treated, with love, respect, and reverence. I won't give up on hoping that everyone hops aboard the ascension express picking up steam and leaving the 3D station at the end of this year. I know in my heart that it is possible, and I will hold that vision close to me.    

There is a ton of information out there about what really happened on 9/11/2001. For a good place to start, check out The 2012 Scenario website. All of their articles and videos posted today concern 9-11. I have already seen some videos about what really happened on that day, so I am not new to this. But if you are totally unaware that our own government perpetrated the attacks for their own gains, then check out some of these videos. If you cannot see the compelling arguments for conspiracy, then you must be a master at cognitive dissonance. And it is time to wake up out of your self-induced coma. The time for sleeping is over. We all need to wake up and pull the collective into the fifth dimension so we can start the Golden Age. Why is this so hard? What is the real choice here? I don't see any comparison: love, peace, unity, abundance, joy or more hatred, war, separation, poverty and lack, pain and suffering. This is not a close contest!

I have spent the last week with my mom, who is still immersed in 3D even though I have told her everything I feel and know about what is coming. She listens with an open-mind, but still looks at me on occasion like I am crazy. I love her dearly, and wish for nothing but her happiness. I will continue to tell people what I believe and let the chips fall where they may. I am going to continue to work very hard on myself knowing that my work is helping Mother Gaia and the human collective. I am honored and blessed to be here on Earth at this time doing this work. But the time is now to wake up and demand not only the truth about 9-11, but the truth about the entire history of humanity. I believe we are in for some real surprises. 

I know these sayings are true. Not because they are in The Bible, but because I have found them to be true in my life. In my life, when I have really wanted something, desired it with all of my heart, I have gotten it. When I have sought answers to my questions about life, the universe, and everything, and I then sat in the stillness and listened, my questions were answered. But the key is our conscious participation. We cannot just sit back and let God do the work for us. God loves us unconditionally. But God also gave us freewill, so we are free to make our own choices, and thus through our will, these choices create our reality. 

When people say we were created in God's image, they think that it means God must look human. That could not be further from the truth. God is Divine Consciousness, and so too we have a spark of that as well. We are God in form. God wanted to experience Itself, so It started creating. God loves all of Its creation because it is all a part of God. I say It because God is everything. Everything comes from God. So God loves everything in creation unconditionally. Including us. We are the ones who judge, not God. God loves. That is a fact. And so do we. Our natural state is love. Once you embrace love, your life will change dramatically. You will remember who you are, and your life will never be the same, because you will start making choices from your heart. Your reality will reflect your heart-centered choices, and you will just know how God could never be anything but love.  

We are in the process of ascending from the third density/dimension/realm to the fourth and into the fifth and beyond. Ascension is what is bringing about the Golden Age on Earth. Earth is ascending and her children, humanity, are going with her. The only requirement is love. That is your golden ticket. LOVE. It is as simple as that. When people talk about the end times or the end of time, do not be afraid. It will be the end of time, the end of linear time, the end of time as we know it now. But it is the beginning of NOW time, living in the eternal present moment of infinity. 

Embrace the Golden Age with open arms. It has everything to offer you, and there is nothing to be afraid of. Tell me, do you really want to continue the world as it is today? Mass corruption, billions in poverty and squalid conditions, homelessness, disease, greed, mass murder, war, hatred, prejudice, violence. If not, all you have to do is open to love and know that the Golden Age can begin any moment we all choose to live in love instead of fear. I promise you that love will not only change your life but the world as well.  

I have been fighting my thoughts for the past day and a half, and I was talking to my brother as we were walking, and he said we are both too hard on ourselves. Our biggest problem is judgment. This thought is good or bad, this behavior is positive or negative, this person is right or wrong. God is not judging me. The Company of Heaven is not judging me. Polarity, right/wrong, good/bad, positive/negative, is solely a 3D concept. It does not exist in the higher dimensions. Why am I doing it? I am so hard on myself, and I was sharing my thoughts and struggles with my brother, which always helps immensely. It is so nice to know that we are not alone in this struggle. 

We were talking about how the world is, and how most people have no idea who they are and what they are capable of. They are so busy trying to make it from day to day that their spirituality is not a high priority, and going to church is useless because it is just another way to beat people down and keep them from the truth. My brother was telling me about some customers that come into the gas station where he works, and how they are so tired and frustrated by the way the world is, but they just don't know what to do or where to turn. And we were talking about fighting for these people. That is why I incarnated on 3D Earth at this time, this time of Ascension. To help those who cannot help themselves. To be a warrior for the Light. To help bring Earth up to Heaven. And I won't stop. I won't give up. I will keep fighting until December 21, 2012. 

I was somewhat morose as I continued my walk alone. But I was comforted considerably by thinking of a poem, "Footprints," and imagining Jesus walking beside me like a friend, kindly watching over me. I finally made it to the Civic Center, where I walk most mornings, and I saw these two older ladies who walk there every morning as well. And I said "good morning," and even had a nice exchange with one of them, and I thought to myself that I was fighting for them too. These sweet older ladies who are not letting old age get the best of them. In fact, it is primarily older people I see walking around the track in the mornings (crack of dawn is more like it, believe me, I see the sun rise every morning). Most people are decent and kind and deserve a chance to get out of 3D. All of humanity is invited to ascend out of 3D into 5D and higher at the end of the year, thanks to the grace of God.

I had to put on some more upbeat music because my iPod was on random and picking the slowest songs, so I switched on my Dash Berlin playlist. And not more than a few minutes later, I saw a rainbow. I was so moved. I really felt that rainbow was just for me, to cheer me up. And as I continued my walk, I saw another rainbow. This one was even more beautiful, and you could see all seven colors so clearly. It was just mesmerizing. I just stood and stared for a few minutes. Then I continued walking. With rain clouds in the west, and the sun rising in the east, I really felt like the Universe was listening and was showing me the way: the harmonious interplay of light and dark is what creates the rainbow. 

Footprints by Mary Stevenson

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life
when I was suffering from 
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord, 
"You promised me Lord
that if I followed you, 
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during 
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you."
    

*We are co-creators of our reality, so I have started writing out what I want. I wrote out the first part of this last year, but I put in some specific details today about what I would like specifically for me in 5D. I just want to inspire people to dream the BIG dreams. 5D is going to be beyond beautiful! 

Utopia
In my world, things will be a lot different than they are today. There will be no currency. Money will no longer be needed in my world. Energy, food, water, housing, the necessities of life will be free to all. No one should have to pay for what Mother Nature freely provides for her children. Everyone will be equals, regardless of race, religion, nationality, gender, sexuality, what planet they come from, etc. Every species will be protected and treated with the respect that all sentient beings deserve. All life will be respected. There will no longer be any need to kill another creature for food. Food will no longer be necessary as our bodies evolve into organisms that filter and use light from the sun as fuel. All other organisms will evolve in this way as well. This will eliminate disease and sickness, as organisms will no longer have to prey on other organisms. There will be no more fighting, as all governments, organized religions, and all other outdated power structures are quickly dismantled and eliminated. People will govern themselves. Everyone will live by the Golden Rule: “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” Spirituality will spread to everyone’s heart. People will become selfless, compassionate, loving, humble, forgiving, galactic citizens. We will choose to become a member of the Galactic Council, and our brothers and sisters from the stars will come out into the open. They will live among us. People will evolve rapidly into luminous beings. The Earth, by her own Will and with the help of humanity, will be cleaned of all toxins, poisons, and anything that is detrimental to Her, humanity, or any other species that lives here. This world will be wonderful beyond my wildest dreams! It is coming! 2012 is the year of change. I BELIEVE that this is the world that we are going to have. I will NOT accept any less. This IS the only world I will live in. 

Well, there are so many things that I would love to have, so where to begin. I would love to have lots of children. They don’t have to be “mine.” I don’t mind at all adopting children that need good homes, and I just really have a feeling that there will be kids who ascend without their parents. There is no judgment involved with this statement. Some people are ready for ascension and some people are not. I would love to become a guardian for some of these kids. 

I want to have a home in the mountains. It is going to be in some very tall Redwood-type trees. The main house is going to be in one tree and then there will be other little houses in the other trees connected by wooden bridges just for fun because we will also have teleportation abilities. The kids can live in the other little houses when they are older but the younger children will live in the main house. The main house will be open to the elements. The roof will overhang the walls of the main house. Everyone will have a hammock for a bed, unless they want something else. The furniture is going to be comfortable and livable. There will be a library area with tons of books and tables and chairs and little couches. There will be no TV, but there will be a computer station in the library for Internet access, research, and of course, music. There will be a mountain waterfall nearby for ambient sound. There will also be a mountain stream and lake nearby for recreation. I think the house is just going to be one big room with the different rooms divided off by furniture or plants or something. 

There will be zip lines and swings and anything else we can dream up to put in the trees to have fun. I will let the children really have fun with this.  

I want to have a mate/partner to share my life with. I want to meet a man who is loving, compassionate, self-aware, kind, funny, intelligent, joyful, loves children, who is my energetic match spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. Someone who is on my level energetically/on my frequency. 

I would love to do something for a living that contributes to society. I would like to be a healer or a teacher or even some kind of naturalist. I don’t know. I am not attached to one thing. I honestly don’t know what I came here to do or what I am capable of. I know I can do anything that I set my mind to, and I honestly think that I will know more after December 21, 2012. I want to help and be of service, that I know for certain.  

Three of the best words I have ever thought or said. There are few things I know for certain. I know that I am divine. I know that God is love and the source of all life. I know that I am going to ascend. Beyond these things, though, everything else is in the air. Who am I? Where did I come from? Do I have a galactic family out there somewhere, waiting for me to ascend? Do I have a twin flame? What are the four plus months leading up to Ascension going to be like? When are we going to get Disclosure? What is 5D going to be like? There are so many questions, and I don't have any answers. And I am okay with it. I have faith in God and the Divine Plan. I feel safe, protected, loved. I am calm and at peace. 

I have just been in a place lately where all I want to do is just be. I have no desires, no agenda, no to-dos. I am not depressed at all. Just in a state of pure being. I am content to be me. I am changing every moment, striving to live with all of my thoughts, words, and actions in divine alignment with one another. I am trying to live a heart-centered life. And the more I do it, the less I care for 3D things. I guess you could say this illusion is just crumbling down around my ears. My brother and I call 3D the Theater of the Absurd. More and more we find ourselves not on the stage anymore but in the front row. 

Now I know why things that used to bring me joy no longer do. It is not that I don't experience joy, it is just that the superficial joy I got from 3D no longer feels like joy anymore. I know it is not real joy. I get real joy from making someone laugh. I get real joy from love. I get real joy from helping people. I get real joy from my relationship with God. Happiness, joy, calm, peace, serenity, faith, hope, integrity, honesty, compassion, these are the emotions that I am learning are so much more than I ever knew before. In 3D these emotions are beautiful. But as we progress in consciousness, these emotions become everything, they become who we are. Or who we always were but forgot for a little while. 3D is the illusion. The heavenly realms are real. They are where we belong. They are where we long to go. They are our home.